Measuring up...?

There is nothing quite as lonely than feeling like you do not measure up to your peers. Being an "older" student here at PSR, I sometimes feel like I simply do not measure up to the "kids". There are some really academically smart people here. Now, I do not consider myself "not smart" at all. But being around those who "get it" with one reading, and "get it" passionately is daunting to say the least. I spent almost four hours writing two summaries of articles that were a total of 4 pages long. Easy right? I read and re-read that text until I think I have a tiny grasp on its content. Fighting these feelings of inadequacy has been a big part of my week. Thank God I have tomorrow to re-group.

This is not a pity party in any sense of the word. However, I do see how people in "the real world" have problems with measuring up to what society thinks of them...what their families think of them and what their church thinks of them.

Even though I am being evaluated by some pretty incredible folks in academia, as well as the smart kids...I am realizing that I only have to ULTIMATELY, please my heavenly father. (no offense to any of my PSR buddies who don't identify with that word, father.) I am here to become a better GREG for ministry. He has gifted me is so many ways, now I am just learning to connect my head with my heart.

For all those out there who feel they just don't quite measure up...remember...We all perform in this life for an audience of ONE...and that ONE will give you the strength to realize that you do measure up...you are a blessed child of God...a child of the most Holy Being! Perform, Study, work, parent, lead, direct, write, paint, sing for HIM. What ever you do...do it for God's glory and he will provide! Ciao!